Strength

You are my strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
Reaches to me

You are my hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace
In the power of Your Name
You lift me up
You lift me up

Unfailing love
Stronger than mountains
Deeper than oceans
Reaches to me

Your love O Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness
Reaches to the skies

Young Lady

Samuel called asking me whether I’ll be coming back by bus or will I be going back home for dinner. I told him I will be back home but maybe a bit later, thought of buying some nice stuff for myself. I was happy. Daddy called also asking me anything extra I want to eat. I said is okay, I want to eat what mummy cooks.  Actually I suggested we dined outside for something nice, I pay for it but mummy thinks shouldn’t. Then after work, I called home. Told mummy again I will be back home for dinner but a bit later. She said she won’t be cooking, she’s too tired. I was puzzled why Samuel asked me will I be back home, I realised that’s because he wanted to use the car to date his gf. No wonder. no wonder.

I walked in the mall. Top up my phone’s credit because I wil get 50% bonus credit for what I top up, digi user.”100 bucks, thanks.” The digi salesgirl looked at me and asked why. “It’s my birthday.” She looked at me again, longer.

Reluctantly I walked and walked, passed by beautiful clothes and nice candy shops. Passerby and strangers. I did not bought anything and was about to went home. I saw a guy smiling and waving at me, he looks very familiar but just couldn’t think of who he is. He asked me why am I alone, I don’t know what to say, just  smiled and said bye. Crossing the CIQ to bus stop, I saw a TnT member, Biscuit or something. Wanted to smiled at him but he didn’t noticed me.

Then I got in my bus, thinking. I forgot why I cried. Perhaps I was tired. Perhaps I was afraid of what may come for the next 20 years. Perhaps I was thinking the past 20 years I had. Perhaps because I was no longer a teen. Perhaps because I’m expected to be treated as grown up. Perhaps I’m always different. Perhaps I don’t know why. Prisc texted me and it was very encouraging to me at that moment. “He doesn’t change”, really cuts my heart and tears began to flow.

I got back home. Cooked myself high class instant noodle with an egg and 5 fishballs, not too bad for instant noodle I thought. Matthew wished me and happily shared the cake with me, some student at work bought for me. They also bought me chocolate and full cream milk because they just knew it and that’s what they could get from petrol kiosk, it was really really sweet I thought. (: One colleague and a few students bought me a cheese cake too, that colleague also gave me a very small pendrive as present. (: Thank you everyone who wished in facebook and sms or call too. (:

Well, today my cg got me a handmade card. (: Prisc got me a card too and lovely lovely daisy. (: Sunday I will be meeting my good buddies in secondary school for dinner. (:

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So much to tell.

I wonder if I had 20 years more, will I still portray myself walking alone waiting and chasing shooting star where everybody thought that me myself am the star in this beautiful galaxy with many many other stars.. I guess, at least I’ve also always portray myself walking alone but Jesus holding my hand and I’m never alone. (:

Maybe I just miss playing see-saw and kiss the sky with slippers off my feet.

Maybe I just miss being hug high up and spin along with wind brushing through my hair.

Of errors and mistakes, of unwritten and unspoken, of regrets and sorrows, God trade it all with joy, hope, love and peace. Thank you. (: For 20 years and many more 20 years to come, thank you. (:

Happy 20th birthday, young lady.

Sudden Death

Dinner is gone.

It just happened that it died tragically with all his legs broken all over the beautiful house of his unknowingly/no trace/no reason while the day before it was still as active as ever.

I don’t even get to keep the shell as momento because some remaining body parts are inside, it’s just cruel to dig it out. So I buried everything.

Anyway, I’m not super sad, just 有感情了.

Spotted by Siow Ching in Cheras pasar malam, and it was love at first sight then treat it with care, some boring nights and days in college playing with it, observing it and smuggle inside hostel telling people it’s science project. Then was planning to smuggle to Singapore in the future if I study there. It’s clean, quiet and cute. But it’s gone now. It’s a good pet all the while. (:

Slow Down

Where mountains fall and reason fails

And You calm the raging seas

And You calm the storms in me, again

Slow down.

Rest in You.

So, How’s The Interview?

I went for NAFA Interview last Saturday. Required to bring quite some stuff and thanks to Alex for the many many magazines!

My parents brought me in and I went up to the 2nd floor, it was flooded with a lot a lot cool and stylish people. I was a bit shocked because never really expected that much of people will attend that interview and I was feeling the tension.

I.. carry a handbag, a bag of magazines(heavy!!), another bag of all my stuff(watercolour, pencil colour, tools, brushes and etc). Felt like a LOST KID WITH MANY THINGS.

NOT COOL. hahaha..

But seriously, I think they look mature, don’t really know how old are them, I really do feel like a lost kid. And they really have that designer look, some just look weird and messy. haha.. =p

So, the 1st part required us to do observational drawing, draw something you have that time in 3 different perspective in 1 hour. Hence, I drew my wallet! But too bad, I din managed to finish shading the 3rd picture.

2nd part was poster design. Using all the magazines and media we have to make a poster according to the theme given. There were 3 themes, but I only clearly understood the 3rd theme- New Technology. I name it as “Into Enthu- The Big Noise”. lol.

Don’t know how well I did, but quite satisfied with my performance. So, now just sit and wait for their reply meanwhile busy busy busy doing assignments, portfolio and essay for NTU’s application.

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I wish I have more time seriously yet I like to keep myself occupied, irony.

Weekdays-work, after work-travel, eat and sleep.

Weekends-cg, church, cbc and preparations for application.

I guess everyone is not less busy too. I guess. (:

As usual, my mind is always in the thinking mode, just recently some stuff came across my mind. I’ll blog more if I have more time. (:

Oh ya! You- album launching concert is tomorrow! All are welcome! It’s 3pm at Full Gospel Church, Johor Jaya, ask me more for details.

Have a great weekend everyone!

*yay! it’s 6pm, off to bus stop and more great conversation, argument, Q&A sessions. (: *

Something Cute..

I think her parents taught her well and she’s so adorable. Aw…

“I’ve got the joy joy joy joy joy in my heart”
I used to sing that when I was a kid. (:

You Are My Righteousness

Don’t cry tonight little darling
Forget the screams that night
The glow of firelight as you ran into the darkness
It was over before we knew just what to do
Remember daddy loved you
Breathe tonight tomorrow’s far away
Just close your eyes and dream of better days

Cos I’ve been waiting here, no one knows it
No one knows my name
Can’t seem to dry my tears, someone stop the pain

I’ll say a prayer for you tonight
Watch the world fly by in the daily times
Open your eyes ask yourself just why
We pretend its fine

Eight years old so excited
First day at school learn the golden rule, how to love your neighbor
Across the world there’s another, eight years old
Just been sold to feed a man’s addiction
She fears the night, tries to remember when
She was home again with loving arms around here
Breathe tonight little sister, tomorrow’s far away
Just close your eyes and dream of better days

Cos I don’t wanna live in a world that tells me
To live and let live get your house and your widescreen
There’s gotta be more than what I’m told is the good life
A good life

Why|Coloured Lights|Chad Blondel

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今天好冤枉。

今天在想很多为什么。

It Must Be Some Special Day

Today morning, on the way to office in the car.. It makes me smile a little. (:

Today evening, on the way back home.. It makes me smile a little bit more. (:

Proposal Paparazzi

I think time flies quickly.

It’s like ever since work, I think I cut down a lot of time for myself and some quality time for things I like and ppl I love. Weekdays are like working days, watch the sunrise when I brush my teeth and the sunset in the bus. Saturday morning is work again, afternoon have quick lunch then rush to Teenz. Sunday is like sunday service/cbc then go home and sleep until evening. But well, I always motivate myself telling myself that I find rest in Him and I kinda find certain joy in all these. Sometimes I also find little fun in work like doodling post ups and imagining things, observing people when traveling. haha. =p

I always saw these pretty flowers/trees on the road side and I kinda like this one the most. The one in church.

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I think right, I want to get a big fat juicy proper camera. Just thinking..

Actually I have a dream. To be a wedding photographer. Yesh, oh yesh.

I just think that wedding photographs can be very creative, true and dreamy. Is like I just feel happy and excited looking at wedding albums and photos, especially those that are not studio that kind, like those candid shots on the wedding day itself. It just shows all the true emotions of people and little things.

And I came across this job fun called proposal paparazzi. Is like you are hired to be some sort of paparazzi to take shots of wedding proposal. I think every female out there will most probably shouting “EH!! I WANT THIS!”.. Guys, I’m not too sure though. hahah..

Some thing like this…

I think it’s still not very popular here right? hmm. I should start a business provided if I am a good camera woman. hmm.. HAHAHAH!

Is this a good excuse to get a camera? lol.

Everything’s in His hand