Busking under the sun, with breeze and everything nice, just close your eyes.. It feels good! (:
I love walking in the crowd and sitting in public places, it makes me wonder and have many many thoughts in mind about people, about things, about circumstances and about life. Then continue walking and questioning God. Though I don’t get immediate answer always, but somehow someday something will just reveal it all. And even perhaps I’ve already forgotten about it and the answers will just come, triggers that long ago questions I used to ask and hearing as if God whispering to me “you see? so now you know…“. Then I’ll just smile and walk down to the memory lane, back to the time why I ask why/how/what. Then continue walking and smiling, thinking “hah! me so silly! God u’re so cute!” (:
Then it goes on and on.. perhaps until one day I don’t have to do that. I can just speak face to face like how Moses in the bible did with that extra sweet embrace and I will know I am at Home. (:
Okay, 1st resolution for 2009!!
I’ve decided to wake up early and take my bread of life every morning in the park near by. Told ya I’ve been feeling very very very weird lately rite? I think I’m missing something which I can’t even explain what it is (it’s just very weird!) and is like no more woohah-whoa-wow exclamation marks in life that really really amazed me, no joy! I just feel that I want to have a deeper relationship, like another phase in the walk with God to make this journey on earth more exciting.
The desire to really want God in life, in every aspect and not to show this life to the world or anyone.
Heyyyy!!! WHERE IS MY PANTUN HUH MY FOREVER-PANTUN-DESKMATE???!!! Lol. Lets meet up one day again lar alright? Haha. Take care and happy new year!!! (:
Well, i can’t really tell you why you felt wierd as i don’t understand you well enough like your close friends and family do but after reading this post, i can relate to some of my experiences…
Just my 2 cents but you can have some thought on it : )
I think the reason you felt ‘wierd’ is that your mind is starting the process of transition from your current teenage years in preparation of your adulthood. Being so, you start to struggle on how to ‘redefine’ the relationship with the people you know and the surroundings.
I don’t know does this happen to everyone but the struggle exist because you are confused in the transition in how to handle your past (teenage experiences) and to embrace your future (adulthood and the unknown). You may be afraid of losing what works really well and what was gained in your teenage days in this transition.
It may take time to recondition and reconcile your mind and priorities, some long, some short, but i am confident that with your relationship with God and the people significant to you, you will emerge STRONGER and i too believe that you will continue to mature into a lady that i will truly RESPECT.
You will find your way…may God guide you into significance in His destiny for you!
peishi- yar, couldn’t talk to u much. Maybe one day we can hangout, I can go lavender find u! hahah! Imagine u in the purple suits, it sure looks cute. (:
peter- Whoa! That’s a long comment and I truly appreciate that. I really thought of what u wrote, I guess perhaps partly it is. Just some mussings though, not very good in words in expressing. I wish somehow one day if mind can speak for itself or like some data translation for sometimes how I felt and thinking. Anyway, really thanks for these words of encouragement and thank God for a friend like you! (: Btw, where are you now? Do you happen to have a blog too?
Understanding oneself takes a life time of reflection…possible that at one’s death bed, one still can’t truly understand oneself…that’s the irony of life (depending on how you view it)
I do actually regard bloggers as people better at expressing as they write and think a lot. You need quite some effort to turn views and ideas into words people can relate to. So, you should be better at expressing yourself than i do! Maybe it is just that you seldom touch serious topics about expressing yourself…
I’m still in JB (sunway college). I don’t own a blog though…i don’t have such inspirations like you and others do in blogging different topics frequent enough for friends and readers’ interest + attention. If i have one, i will tell you.
Take care, i will visit your blog frequently : )
hahahaha sure sure no problem! lets go hangout someday! omg lar i think it will look funny on me. =.=
Haha, long time no see Shan Lei. I just got redirected here from Hanley’s blog.
Anyway, it’s good to see you well as ever. I kinda agree with what Peter said above (haven’t seen him in a while either *o*) about entering adulthood and going on to the next phase of life. I believe that I’ve been experiencing the exact same thing in my personal walk with our Father above recently. I’m really glad that you guys feel the same way too.
Like peter, I’ll be visiting your blog more often too. It’s good to catch up, no? >=D
yesh! thanks for visiting and glad to hear from you too. (: